I am a horrible person...

why is it that I have to take a side? my mom keeps saying things like "if you only knew" and it's driving me insane. if he wanted me to know, he would tell me. dammit.

i feel horrible for my mom, i really do, and it's only been a week... and they were married for 27 years. gah- I have no right to complain. i have no idea what she is going through right now, but i am getting tired of hearing the same things over and over and over and her trying to make me feel sorry for her.

wow, i am a horrible person...

I haven't talked to him for a few days... since thursday i think. she keeps asking me if i have talked to him. what if i have? what am i supposed to say?

I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THE MIDDLE.